The Past...

Silence....Silence it fills the night time air. Chilling a soul to the bones. No honking horns. No owls crys. Not even the flutter of a bat. Screams....Screams they pierce the darkness. Cutting one to the soul. Pain in the agony. Pain in the ravaging. Brokenness in the wailing. Abandoned....Abandoned as the soul and body bleed. No hands to heal. No words to sooth. Not even a whisper of hope. This is how my body and my soul felt for a while there....broken, ravaged, and bleeding.... I was screaming in the silence of the night...and none would come to my aid...who were willing to tend the bleeding.  At times...it still feels this way...but now I have those who aid me...and I do them. ~ Traveller Gal, out!

A Battle Cry...

People of the underground, outcasts, travellers, vagabonds....Rise UP!!  For your LORD does have need of you this hour.   Rise Up!  For your brothers and sisters are dying within the shadowlands without Hope...without the Truth we hold within Our Hearts!!!

Sharpen your skill with your Swords, which be the Holy Words of our God.   Sharpen your skill with the incense of Prayer...with the sweet fragrance of Worship before Our Lord... For these are the days of Battle.   These are the days we are called to.   This is our hour upon this earth...this is our moment in history...Take up your shields of Faith and hold your ground!

Let us charge into the shadowlands...let us rescue our wounded brothers and sisters....who have been imprisoned for SO long.  Let us tend their wounds with love, their pain with healing, and their sorrow with the balm of the Lord.

Let us not grow weary in this fight....this is our hour, and this is our day.   Be strong in the Lord.  For if God is for us...WHO can be against US!!!!

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Stuff...

In good news....I am still in the running for the job in photography...the lady who manages the studio has a set # she has to interviwe.   So...yeah.   I was either the first...or one of the very first.   Keep on praying.

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My mom is panicing....worried that I am getting rid of WAY to much.... umm...why I am going to listen....when the whole house is over stuffed with her stuff...and she has 300 outfits just hanging in the laundery room?   LOL.  I am not my mother.   This house is driving me boncers....LOL.  She swares it is her too...yet we go shopping for more stuff...3-4 times a week...it does not compute.
I am getting alot done...Have one of the two cheast of draws in my room cleared out....and at dad's sugjestion...am keeping stacks of stuff I am sorting in it....until I have time to work on them...creates less floor mess.      The other cheast, I have my clothing neat orginized within...other than the dress clothing....they hang in the closet.   ^_^  I have even weeded out the books I just never read past the first time.   That gave me more room.

Simple Life...

Ok... as I have brought up many many a times... I am called to live a very simple life.   Any one who has known me well knows...CALLED yes...practicing...UMMM...LOL...not by a long shot.

This week all that has changed.   I actually said... "You know what?   I am sick of this...I have felt this call for 7 years...played around with it...tried to...stopped...started...stopped...and have more now than when I first set out to do this.   I HAVE HAD IT!!!! All this junk is just driving me crazy...fighting with it...keeps me from having time to draw, talk with friends, and alot of other GREAT stuff...because of it my room is never as clean as it needs to be...this is it... I am tackleing this monster...and I am kicking out most everything that I dont honestly need."   And I am and have so far done just that.

Oh, and btw...it is just not clothing...but everything...yes even books....I am hitting on this time.  LOTR and Narnia...umm...those are keepers...my Irish books?  Umm...depends on if they hold the same info...but I think I have weeded them down already so I dont have duplicates anyway...LOL.
Yeah...NOW the key is...Just keeping Mom from buying me more junk I dont really need.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Callings and dreams...

Hey all...I am taking in my comp for basic repares, and with the snow and all...I wont be bikeing to the library this week.
Going to use this time for really intince studying the Word. I trust to have great stuff to post when I come back.... ^_^ .   See you then!

Oh, a few days back I said I needed new dreams, but what I really mean is I need a new approach to the dreams.   A new way of heading into it...I still want to do outreach to at-risk youth/young adults...I still want to do bardic ministry... I still want to help reach the Irish and the Navajo...but I need to find out how GOD is asking me to do it...I know this week will be good for that.   In some ways I think He is backing me up so that I can work my callings around who ever I am to marry's callings.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Needing new dreams...

I am sorry first of all...to all of you...this will be a depressing post.   IF you are low right now...just read another day.   I dont want to make anyone more depressed...but this is stuff I have to get out.

As I have already stated, love and I are not close friends.   Yet before anyone gets the wrong ideas...I am still a helpless romantic...the princess who longs to have her prince come ridding in and rescue her...and tend to her ailing health.  For a time I have known that.   That time has parted...may haps I will see it again.

Secondly, my health has waned...tis not as bad as this summer, true.   But winter is normally my best time.  When I have stronger energy and can come closer to tackling the world.   I had that...for a month and a half after the weather cooled, but now tis back to maybe one good day a week.   At least my back is not "killing" me with pain...I am just well...sore all over...for no good reason.

Thirdly, as many of you know...my dream in life was to start up safe houses and clubs for the youth and to live in one of the safe houses.   Realitly has set in.   My health will never permit me to live in a safe house or run a club.   Oversee the ministry that sponsores those who do?  Yes, run them myself no.   I just dont have the energy for that.   And that hurts, for 3 years I have longed for this...and to realize that is like a knife to the heart.

Fourthly,  I am 1000 miles away from most of my friend, and those I am close to, I still hardly get to see. 

Fifthly, I am jobless, and not for lack of trying.   I have been for 10 months, and still no luck.   It does not help any that I can only work part time, when I do get a job...due to my health.

Yeah...I am fighting with depression.   And I need some new dreams....blast it all.  LOL.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Struggles

I want to make something clear... Despite what it may seem...Faith and Trust are points I strugle with...Simple life and abandoning the things of this world....have been weak points for me.   Does this mean I give up?   NO!!!!   

First of all,   I know Christ is all I have to hold on to.   Iosa Criosta i mi Ri! 

    

Secondly,  without Him...I have nothing left to HOPE for.   All my hopes are resting in Him.   My life is hard and full of sorrow, but His Promises and His Word....is the Hope that pulls me through.   

Thirdly, what do I have to lose?  LOL.   He gave me life.   He can take it away.   He can bless the deeds of my hands.   Tis better to serve Him.

~ Traveller Gal, out!