For the first time in ages I can say life is truly good. Everyone
up here is soo accepting of people like me... mostly because there
are soo many around here. lol.
Oh yeah, I am in Leslie MI.... not sure for how long... that kinda
depends.... on a lot... but if the peace I have inside is true.... this will be home for a while.
For the first time since the year of sorrow.... everything in life just fits
together... here I am totally honest and myself... I took a
long walk last night before I had to get back to get some sleep
for... and contemplated on deep things of the faith... tis sooo crazy...I
find myself returning to the things of the faith that I thought were
totally dead to me.... hmmm.... strange... could it be that God brought me here now for this very season....
There is soo much I could be doing, soo much my life once held. I
need to learn how to lead in the battle no matter how week my physical
body is... for this battle is not against flesh and bone, but against
the things in the spiritual realm that stand against God.
I find my self more and more restless... though I am not well enough
to work away from home. I awake in the middle of the night (my time of
the day---not my parents or I would be up more at night.) longing for
more. I use to be so focused. I used to be so sure of where I was
headed. Where did that go?
God, I beg of Thee, show me what path to walk... guide me. Return
understanding to me... that I might know the meanings to that which You
are showing me. I return again to Thy Word with faithfulness, as close
as a human can know...anyway. My King, teach Thy daughter what You
want of her. Amen.†
I am trying to keep in a good mood...as most likely you can tell. It is
hard some days, for at times I only have enough energy to rest on the
couch, read, and talk with friends. God is helping me. While I'll
never understand why He allows this stuff to happen... I am kinda glad He
Nothing like a mystery illness to drive me into His Word and
prayer... because that is all I have left to cling to in this life. My possessions mean little, money means little... the things that matter,
friends, family, the Lord, the calling. Those are what in this life