There is soo much I could be doing, soo much my life once held. I
need to learn how to lead in the battle no matter how week my physical
body is... for this battle is not against flesh and bone, but against
the things in the spiritual realm that stand against God.
I find my self more and more restless... though I am not well enough
to work away from home. I awake in the middle of the night (my time of
the day---not my parents or I would be up more at night.) longing for
more. I use to be so focused. I used to be so sure of where I was
headed. Where did that go?
God, I beg of Thee, show me what path to walk... guide me. Return
understanding to me... that I might know the meanings to that which You
are showing me. I return again to Thy Word with faithfulness, as close
as a human can know...anyway. My King, teach Thy daughter what You
want of her. Amen.†