Ashy Skies

God, burn up all the ugly parts of my life!  Kill the parts of me that You dont want around.   I hate this life like it is right now, with such pain and sorrow.  Burn out the sin burn out the evil, leave only what You will in their place.

 Amen!

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I don't know where I am headed...I once did... but all this craziness has clouded my view.   God help me see the path again... the ash in the sky is to thick!!!

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Gaze to heaven, soul in ashes,
Heart on fire, life in rune,
Trials and turmoils,
Joys and blessings,
All this way do come.

Gaze above, life shadows
Heart alive, soul in distress,
Pain and death,
Healing and life,
All this way do come.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

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"Riches I heed not nor man's empty praise, THOU mine inheritance now and always! "~ Be Thou My Vision

Let me tell you a  bit about the woman I am becoming again....

I am a fun loving, dedicated Christian...committed to purity, honesty, humility, and a simplistic lifestyle.   I am into Celtic Christianity and the history of Native America, especially the Navajo.   Personally I am a traveller gal.  It does not take much to make me happy, a dry place to sleep, some food, good friends, and mi lord. 

I am kinda shy except with those I am close to, but this is partially because I don't want to hurt others.   In the past I have been like poison, so until I am sure I am not again...I tend to hang back a bit.  Once I open up though, I tend to be bold and confesses my soul to you.

That is who I am right now... growing in God... spending time daily in HIS Word.  Praying, seeking His will, and living for Him....seeking a chance to get back on the open road.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Dreams for Future...

I love life, but not as I am facing it now.   I wish I could go back to January 2001 when life was really good... keep the good friends I have made since then, but go back to a simpler time...when my biggest worry was getting money to go on a Missions trip.

I am just heart sick, in more ways than I can list.   I just want to live a simple life a way from this crazy world.   Maybe settle into traveling with a good husband, have a few kids, and create safe havens for youth...  So simple, yet so complex is that dream.

You know, I can do like Paul... put the past with its great trimps and great tribulations behind me.   If he can do it so can I.  It wont be easy, but what in life is anymore?

Oh, for the simplicity of life on the open road again!

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Journey to Ft. Wayne

Well, i am at my aunt's for a while... then heading to Kansas...till i get money and license...then may haps  back to MI.   ^_^

It is time to let God start making a path for my life.  I must look into more schooling... and where to get the money for it.   I am praying to get to go back to Michigan... at least until I have money and some training like at Visions.   Who knows... one plan changes and God opens another door.
Life is so strange... but worth living.   At least GOD brings great good out of great darkness as only HE can.

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Spent yesterday with my Aunt Nel and 2nd cousins Ashley and Liz.   Got a beautiful dress for prom alteritive and stuff to go with it.  Still need gloves, a purse, and shoes, but those will come with time.
 

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~ Traveller Gal, out!

I love begin a traveller gal, but this road is so not easy!

Changes

Mi corp i mort a an saol a an.  (my body is dead to the world.)

Life is so confusing... just when you think you can see what is going on it all changes.   God I hand this mess over to you.  Just use me as You see fit.

I will be honest... I am struggling with my faith at the moment.   I do that off and on.   I get on a high with my faith then come down sometimes into the very darkest valleys so to speak.   It seem to be that this is just the storm before life falls in place.... WHO AM I TO KNOW????

Days change, people change, but not always as one would pray.  Why is nothing seeming to go as it should?   God why do You take so long?   This is trying to the soul... but that is the point isn't it?  Nothing worth fighting for comes easy?  RIGHT?

~ Traveller Gal, out!

21 Years...

Well, my 21st birthday rocked.   I went shopping with a few friends.... so I got a cool Nightmare Before Christmas shirt ) and a "stone" mirror.   I also bought for normal price some chain earrings.   Got a fishnet shirt at JC Penny's for $0.77!!!

I am doing really well at the internship.... it appears that the Upper Room Youth Center is a go.   I will find out for sure at next months conceal meeting. 

My health is a mess.   Not so much that I am really that ill.... it is just the crazy spells I have.   Fainting, breathing problems... every joint in my body hurting.   I wish I was stronger... but maybe it is in the weakness I am meant to help another.  Only Iosa knows for sure, and therefore I trust in Him. 

God help me through this... please, if be Your will, either heal me now... or show me who I am to aid by in my trials still being faithful to YOU.  Amen.

~ Traveller Gal, out!

Broken soul

Broken soul, no place of her own,
Broken soul, no love to call her home,
Broken soul, no wings to fly on,
Broken soul, no tears left to cry,
Broken soul, no will left to live,
Broken soul, no strength to die,
Broken soul, no place of her own.

~ Traveller Gal, out!